I feel truly disappointed with myself.
The cast list for Miss Saigon is finally posted up and I am only in the alternate list.
I am so depressed about it.
I had my skin color to my advantage for the first time and I could not even make it into the show.
As I have said, I don't have to be KIM. I just want to be in it.
Why. Why. Why.
I wanted it so darn bad.
Was I really not good enough?
The fact that I can't even make it to a regional theatre, how can I even think of making on Broadway?
I feel so damn discouraged.