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Tuesday, March 30, 2010

10 minute Update before running to the bus stop

First of all, I apologize for neglecting my blog.
Life has been pretty hectic. At the same time, it's been awesome.

My senior cabaret closed last Friday, and after having all the stress of 'putting up the perfect cabaret', I was so relieved that everything went so well. I was almost upset that we had to end. The best thing about it was that it was the first time when I actually stood out to sing after my Senior Showcase in New York (which didn't count because I lost my voice and I was grunting through the entire song). I lost my confidence and the best of me in New York. I was crushed when I fell sick there. This on the other hand, gave me my confidence back and it felt so good to prove myself wrong. I found joy in performing again, and I know that I am better than what I am right now. I remember going to bed that night without being able to sleep just because I was so happy with how everything was. Amazing feel. Thank you God.

Videos are being edited now, and I can't wait to see them.
I'll post them up as soon as I get a hold of them.

On the other hand, CHICAGO is crazy!
I have never been in a show that has been sold out for so many times!!!!!!!!
I know that I complain about how tired I am before and after the show, but when we're actually running it, it feels awesome.

We all now know the show by heart, and it was the best time throwing new things in, playing with the audience, etc. As much as I hate to admit that I really don't have time, I want to do this FOREVER! Well, 2 more shows, this Thursday and Friday. And they are already sold out.

Till then, off to work!

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

I Just Fell In Love...

with baking.

Despite my busy schedule, I think I found peace in mixing up ingredients and hand stirring them by myself with no one interrupting my 'me time'. The fragrant smell of eggs, flour, sugar, and vanilla essence is heavenly especially after a long day on campus, calms me down. Even better, the sight of golden brownish baked goods makes me so satisfied, and happy.

I just baked a blueberry and strawberry pound cake and I am waiting for it to cool.
*although at the back of my head I could hear Mike's voice saying 'fei si ah'.

Will update about it soon.

Ahhh... busy life. Rehearsals starting again.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Been really busy

Updates on life?
Life? What life?
Rehearsals and late nights were taking a toll of the little time I have left for myself.

CHICAGO opened and out of the three days that we have been performing, two of them were sold out. I'm so glad that I am a part of it, and what a great way to end my last semester here at WMU.

WHAT THE F?! THE FEMME FINALE was great too. (excluding the fact that I actually forgotten the lyrics for Lady Gaga's Paparazzi. How is that even possible!?) I love brain farts. Despite it happening every so often in my life, it still surprises me every now and then.

Here's a short video of one of our rehearsals.
It's our own rendition of Bob Dylan's Make You Feel My Love

Obvious that I forgotten the first few words of the chorus?
Yeah, talk about brain fart! :)

Friday, March 19, 2010

I'm Still Alive

Chicago opened yesterday.
What The F? Opens tonight.

and I am still alive with a lot of homework piled up.

I need sleep and a life.

But thank God I am still alive.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Will let the pictures do the talking

*breathe, just breathe*

Last show in Western Michigan University, opens this Thursday and tickets for opening night are already sold out. Get em before you miss em!! Thursday through Sunday for the first two weeks and Thursday and Friday for the third week. Come watch!
It's all boobs and jazz.

My senior cabaret opens on Friday right after Chicago (yeah, I'll be doing it with my slut face Chicago make up. Don't blame me! lol) Runs for 2 weeks! Come support!!!!

Alright. back to homework that has been piled up since........ I don't know when.

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

I have a

Bruised rib
Puffy green looking sprained ankle

and I open CHICAGO next week.


Saturday, March 06, 2010

Back in the hole

8 more weeks till I graduate from college.
Oh boy, time sure flies real quick, especially when you don't want it to.
Second half of the semester always scares me.
After embarrassing myself in New York last week, I need to get my voice back and take on the world.
Time to move on.

Homework, rehearsals, cabaret, Chicago, life, here I come and please be good to me.

Thank you all who have left me with words of encouragement, especially mummydearest.

Tuesday, March 02, 2010


I know everything happens for a reason and God has a has a plan for everyone at certain times.
I hate to say this right now. I know that I am in no position to say this but I am so angry with God right now. Ok maybe not with God himself, but with the situation.
I feel that I just witnessed my hopes, dreams, and everything that I have worked for burn into nothing but ashes.

Why of all days to be sick? Why do I have to lose my voice?
Why does it have to be the day that determines my future?

I know that this is another step in life, and heck I have more auditions and opportunities. But this is not just any audition. It is MY SENIOR SHOWCASE that I have been working on ever since I came to the United States!!!!!!!!!!!! Why Why Why. There are no words to express how I feel right now. I have such a heavy lump in my chest. I feel that my case was not justified. I am so damn frustrated right now. I don't know how to move forward from here. Where should I go? Which road should I take? God, please please please help me get through this. I just need to get through it. I don't know how much longer can I do this. Help me be strong. There is more to live than this.