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Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Beach Day

I love my off days. I really do.
Maybe because we've just been extremely busy with rehearsals for the past two weeks. Now that we've finally opened the show, I get to sit back a little and just chill. Unlike everyone else, I love Mondays because to me, it is my weekend. My only day off.

Despite the warnings of my stage manager saying, "No tanning. Burned skin cells do not absorb light the same way as your normal skin cells. Don't be a human light sucker, we don't want to not see your face on stage. etc.", I went to the beach. I mean, I just had to. I will be moving to the concrete jungle in a month and I would not have the opportunity to visit beaches as much. What more, I live so close to Midwest's best beaches so why not?

I did slather a lot of SPF 50 sunscreen though.

My trusted face sunblock from Clinique which I bought last summer at Taiwan's airport prior returning to the US from visting Daddykins at Bangladesh.

Ultra Defense Banana Boat for the body. Only $7.42 from Walmart and I have been using it forever.

So yes, after a nice Eggs Benedict, avocado, tomoatoes, with hollandaise sauce breakfast, sunscreen, the sand, fresh water, big waves, cool breeze, and the noon sun beating down on you, was not a bad choice at all. Thankfully I don't burn easily. Probably because I grew up in hot and humid Malaysia and I was always actively doing cheerleading practices under the sun for 6 hours straight I became pretty much immune to it. Or maybe because I am just plain Asian, and I have more pigmentation on my colored skin. Muahaha.

Oval Beach, nestled among towering sand dunes and bordered by the winding Kalamazoo River on its way to Lake Michigan. Conde Naste Traveler Magazine rated it as 25 best shorelines in the world, and top five beaches in the country by MTV.
Not bad huh.

Due to school holidays and the summer season (of course), although there are many tourists at Saugatuck right now, the fact that it is a Monday, the beach was less crowded and it was nice to have your own personal space, away from people.

Besides the occasional seaweeds, the water was crystal clear.

Thus, an end to a wonderful day at the beach.


I am finally going to the gym tomorrow with my other house mates. It is about time to get my fatty arse up there because although I have been eating really healthy with salads and other types of raw veggies, I have been extremely sinful with chocolates lately. Very bad very bad. I need to be thin for the big apple!

So yes, good night. It's been a very nice couple of days. As much as I am excited to move to New York, apart of me wish that time would move slower just because I am starting to dread leaving this beautiful state that I have been living in for the past three years of my life.


Saturday, June 26, 2010

Dirty Rotten Opening Night

Two short weeks of intense rehearsals to put up the dirty rotten musical.
Two intensive 12 hour days of tech-ing lights and sound effects.
One day for the orchestra to rehearse with us.
And one heck of a opening night!

Here's some of our cast members.

Bernie Yvon who played Lawrence Jameson.
Incredible actor. I learned so much by just watching from the side. 

Kayla (played Jolene), Patrick who was my dance partner, Nicola from France, Julia and I

My director Kurt, Beth (who played Muriel) and I
Horrible flash effect. Gah! I hate my camera.

Patty Cakes, Kayla, Billy K (who played Freddy), Julia and I

Billy, Nicole and I

Come watch Dirty Rotten Scoundrels at Mason Street Warehouse in Downtown Saugatuck.
It is an amazing vacation place with quaint little shops, number one beach in the Midwest (Oval Beach), and of course, come support the arts!!

Performance times:

Tuesday through Saturday at 8pm
Sunday at 7pm
Last Sunday Matinee at 2pm

Regular tickets from Tuesday through Thursday and Sunday evening cost $36.50
Student and Senior Tuesday through Thursday and Sunday evening tickets are $33
Regular Tickets on Friday and Saturday cost $39.75
Student and Senior tickets on Friday and Saturday are $36.50
Sunday Matinee aka last show at 2pm cost $26

Simple yes?
For more information, please check out masonstreetwarehouse.org
Or just leave me a message and I'll be happy to help you out :)


Friday, June 25, 2010

We Open Tomorrow!

Dirty Rotten Scoundrels will be opening tomorrow today in less than 18 hours!!

We just done with our preview and talk back just now and it's been hell lotta stress and fun at the same time just because we only had such a short amount of time to put up such a huge show. I still can't believe that we've managed to put together a show as big as this in 2 weeks. Although I am only in the ensemble, I never had the chance to rest, it was either I had to be on stage, move something, dance, sing, whatever, or be back there stripping as fast as I could so I could get into the next scene, or moving something on stage. 
Although it is almost a 2 and half hour show without intermission, I must say that this is the busiest show that I have ever been involved in.

Some of our cast members (mostly the ensemble) after rehearsal at the beach watching the sun set
We have a huge cast I must say. We have 12 ensemble members and 5 leads! It is the biggest show our theatre company, Mason Street Warehouse has ever attempted.

Beautiful? Absolutely.


Yay sun, sand, and champagne.

Looking for wood for bonfire nights under the stars.

Hmmm... now that the show will be opening, there will be less stress from working during rehearsals. I can't wait!!! 

I'll be taking more pictures during the show and you can see my 250 different costumes.
Here's my bob wig by the way. Don't I look Korean?

Anyway, break all limbs for tomorrow all!!!
Good night.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Things my daddy sends me

If you can't read it from here, try clicking on it. 
This is the biggest I could upload.

Sunday, June 20, 2010


The previous post was all about work and its stress.
All of us went out last night and watched the sunset. 
It felt amazing to be around everyone else in a non-work atmosphere.
We really needed that.
I can't wait to get done with rehearsals, start performing, and hanging out.
That's when all the fun begins :)

On the other hand, Happy Father's Day Daddykins!

Love you much.

Thursday, June 17, 2010



Imagine doing that all day.
Sounds fun?

Technically, it is. Really fun. Especially when you actually finally get the dance choreography, musical harmonies, and all the other details locked in your body, and you have the chance to play with your character. People always ask, "How can you do this over and over again for months?" Answer is, "Well, you can".
Since it is live theatre, every night is a different night because the audience's presence plays such a big part in how we perform. Not that if we have a horrible audience we wouldn't perform as well, but it would be even better with a much responsive audience because many a times our energy feeds off their energy, if you know what I mean.

It is the ninth day of rehearsal and we have six more rehearsals to go until we start our performance run. Our rehearsals are pretty progressive compared to educational theatre because rather it being a school activity that we are involved in, it is our job. Working with the professionals is probably the best experience ever because you get to see how they work and process. And mind you, just like last year, we have pretty famous people working with our production :) That, I'll blog about later.

I just came home today feeling kinda down. The past few rehearsals have been a little draining for me. It is just tough to keep up emotionally. Sad to say, I am not having as much fun as last year. No offence to anyone, but I am just tired, emotionally. Ironically, this emotional stress is cause by none other than my own peers. I personally think that I am a good worker in groups because I have been involved in various performing groups like dance teams and cheerleading squads. Not to mention that I have led one too. I just hate having be rolled over over and over again by people who think so highly of themselves and having to be the scapegoat over small silly little things that don't even matter in life. Nothing big really happened. It is just the small little things that have been reoccurring over and over again over the past couple of days and it drives me crazy. I can't stand being around people with negative energy, it just drains the hell outta me. I don't really want to bitch about people but I'd just thought that this is my blog and after keeping my emotions in for the entire day, it would be fair for myself to be able to rant it out in my own space. I just feel extremely frustrated working with certain people and really, I tried so hard to wipe the slate in my mind clean every single day but I always end up coming home from rehearsal feeling beaten up.

Plus, usually I don't really hang around my theatre friends. Even back in Kalamazoo, because I never really clicked as well. Mind you, I have nothing against them, at all. Maybe because I never tried hard enough because I was comfortable in my own circle of International friends. Maybe because I never bothered going out to parties with them. I don't know. It is just different because I would feel like an outcast most of the time because the topics that we talk about and the things that we relate to are just different. Right now, I just feel like I am in place filled with people, and at the same time I just feel so lonely. I come home everyday to a house that I share with four other girls and yet I would lock myself in my room and stare at my laptop for hours after dinner and my shower, and the go to sleep. And the cycle repeats. Kinda pathetic huh.

I still love what I do.
It is just extremely difficult dealing with different kinds of people.
And I am sure that applies to any other jobs out there.
My motto, as long as you are dealing with people, there is always trouble.
True story.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

What is Sexy?

A couple of days ago I asked a friend, "Which part of your body do you think is the sexiest".
He replied, "My eyes. I get a lot of compliments on it."
It's true, he has beautiful blue eyes.
Since I usually spend my time questioning people random questions like that, I then thought to myself.
Which part of my own body do I think is the sexiest. Ok. Maybe not sexy. Probably most happy with?

My thick Asian hair? Nah... too many split ends.
My eyes are chinky.
My nose is double F aka. flat and fat.
My face is pimply.
I don't have an armpit because it has so much fat on it that it would be more appropriate to say fatty underarm than anything else.
I have enormous elephant sized arms, hence I do not have any shoulders.
I have small boobs for my size.
I have thick layers of love handles (and that is saying it in a nice way).
Do I have a fupa?  Laugh out loud.
I do have a badunkadunk, that is for sure. I don't know if that is a good thing or not. Maybe. Not in Asia for sure.
I have cellulites on the back of my thunder thighs. Mom would call em layered cake.
I would say that my calves look pretty nice when I wear heels because they are muscular. But then again, every girl's calves look nice in heels.
My feet are ugly. Someone actually told me that once.

Wow. I just realized that I am extremely unhappy with my body.
I need a change of body perception.
Positive thinking please.

Which part of your body do you think is the most attractive?

Monday, June 14, 2010

What The F?!

The Femme Finale

I finally go a hold of a couple of the video recordings from Jon who is also the drummer of the cabaret.
I have posted most of the videos a few months ago but they were recorded by someone else and I really didn't like the fact that he zoomed in and out of out faces because I find it extremely distracting, and it didn't help when I looked so horrible with Post-Chicago performance make up and fatty chubby arms.

So, here ya go.
I am so much more happier with this version.
I am only sad that I only have 3 songs recorded out of the 6 that I sang in because no one was there to help monitor the camera. Oh well, no use crying over spilled milk.

Please feel free to leave a comment :)

Hugs and Kisses.
I am lovin' my day off in Kalamazoo.
Home Sweet House.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Just wanted to rant.

This post has absolutely no content in it.
I just needed a space to talk.

I just came back from a nice brewing company really close to where I was rehearsing for the couple of days. Instead of going to the theatre at Saugatuck for rehearsals, we have been rehearsing at an Art Council at Holland due to the Film Festival taking place at the theatre. This is totally random but, I actually had real food today!

I have been scraping on celery sticks, baby carrots, cucumbers, and crackers for the past couple of days, which is pretty pathetic of me. My dinner two nights ago was a can of tuna, lettuce, and like 5 baby carrots because I am trying to save on cash. We finally decided to go out for dinner today, which was really a treat.

I had a Portabella burger with goat cheese which cost me 9 bucks. And I only ate half of it because I wanted to save the other half for lunch tomorrow. The sad thing was, I boxed it up, and totally left it there because I was distracted.
Then again, I was a little tipsy on the 20 ounce berry cider beer (tasted awesome because it didn't taste like beer at all) that I ordered. I hardly drink beer. Trust me. I can have 3 cocktails and be totally fine. but when it comes to a beer, I can't even have a bottle without feeling a high and giggly.

After that, I went to an awesome Ice-cream place to get a single scoop of hand dipped Kilwin's track ice-cream. I think it was just after a couple of days of food deprivation, I just needed to eat myself silly. Stupid choice. Probably because of the beer. Plus, at that time, I hadn't even realize that I forgot my burger yet.

Now that I am home, realizing that I have left my awesome burger at the restaurant, I just feel extremely stupid to have spent more than 20bucks on my dinner (which I didn't even get to finish, and that beer that I didn't even need because I simply don't drink beer). Stupid.

Ok. Done ranting. Hope I didn't just waste 10 minutes of your time.
It is 10.30pm and I am off to bed now. ZZZzzzzz....

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

Dirty Rotten

Gah! I'm so tired!
Although it was only day two of rehearsals, I already feel like I am falling apart.
Yesterday was spent on learning all the music for the show. And, I know. I suck for not doing my research before hand. I just didn't know that there was going to be so much music in it! Today, we were on our feet the entire 8 hours of rehearsal leaning choreography to a big dance number which we will be continuing again tomorrow. Fun. I feel... fitter. But, I am sore.

For those who don't know, I am doing a production of Dirty Rotten Scoundrel at Mason Street Warehouse in Saugatuck (the theatre company I worked with last year). Dirty Rotten Scoundrels is also a movie, release in December 1988 starring Steve Martin and Michael Caine.

Here is the commercial for the Tour of Dirty Rotten Scoundrels.
Not a production that I am in. But it's the same show anyway.

Here is the 1988 film trailer.

Probably going to retire early again tonight. Been doing that since Monday anyways. Two more weeks to rehearsals is over and I can enjoy performing every night. Best part of the job. :)
For those around Michigan, come visit!

The show opens June 25th until July 18th.
Let me know if you are coming to town!

Monday, June 07, 2010

What's new?

Obama is in WMU today.
He is speaking for the Graduation of a High School in Kalamazoo.

On the other hand, I am off to Saugatuck for my summer job in like 15 minutes!! woohoo!!!!

I thought that I did pretty well for my audition at Chicago.
I didn't get a call back for the show because I knew that they were looking for a performer that is more dance based since they would be doing another production after that. However, I did my best and I was really happy with myself. So that's most important :)

Had a lot of fun in Chigas. 
Ate good food. Walked a lot. Great company.

Thursday, June 03, 2010


In a couple of hours, I'll be waking up and will be driving down to Chi-Town for my first audition out of campus.
I've had several professional auditions before (like the theatre that I am working with right now), but most of them are companies that toured around and stopped by University campuses for their auditions.
This will be my first time getting myself out there. On my own, to an audition for the Royal Caribbean Cruises' production of CHICAGO the Musical.

I always thought that it would be awesome to work in a cruise ship. 
Perform, get paid, save money, and travel.
Not bad eh?

Besides, I know the musical by heart because I've done it before. 
The only down side I see myself having is that I am not thin, nor tall enough.
What the heck. I wish I would book this gig. 
But if it does not work out, I'll be fine.
It's my first audition anyway, what can I expect out from it.


Wish me tonnes of luck, and pray for me!!! 

How much do you charge for a greeting?

I was at work today.
The usual morning 6.30am shifts, opening up the dining hall; making sure that the pop machines work, unlocking doors, setting up the milk machines, and keeping track that the other student workers get here on time to help me put down the chairs before the cafeteria opens up at 7am. That is a daily routine of a dining supervisor during an opening shift. The only thing that we would need to worry about is if any student would not turn up because it is such an early shift. Since it is summer, work is pretty slow. If one out of the three other workers don’t show up, I would just continue step in and help out as much as I can. During the normal school hours, I just keep my fingers crossed and hope that everyone turns up.

As I was doing my usual inspection with my keys hanging from my belt buckle, clunking against my thunder thighs, one of the dishroom workers who seemed extremely bored (because he was doing sitting down playing with his ipod) looked up at me and asked,
"How much do you charge for a greeting?"

I looked at him in confusion and I said, "What do you mean?"
You see, I wasn't quite sure on what he said because he is a very soft spoken person, and he speaks with an African accent. Even though I am used to being around people with different sorts of accents, I gave myself a benefit of a doubt, because to me, his question just simply didn't make sense.

He then repeated himself, and this time I heard clearly,
"How much do you charge for a greeting?"

At that moment, all I could feel was embarrassment. I didn't realize that I was such a butt face. I knew all along that I was way quieter in the mornings. I have no problem waking up, but usually, I don't like speaking unless I have to in the mornings because I’d always like those first couple of hours to warm up and have ‘Yenn time’ before the day starts.

Ugh. Thinking of myself strutting around with the ‘I am so cool. Look at me supervisor bitch face, and the annoying keys clunking around’ makes me sick to my stomach. I really hope people don’t view me that way :(
In Malaysian terms, damn lanci lor!

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

Gluteus Maximus

So, I've finally got my butt up and have worked out a little (just a little) since I have complained about being fat. I ran a little. Did my arms, my abs, butt, and my hamstrings exercises. Overall, I was just a little more active than the previous 2 weeks of summer that I have been lazing around, using the weather as an excuse of being too hot or too cold for me to get out and exercise.

Just when I was about to feel a little better...

I woke up at 5.40am for work today.Dragged my feet to the bathroom with my eyes half closed.
Did my thang. Cleaned up, and finally when I pulled out a pair of my Guess Jeans (according to Lynn, the one that makes my butt look small), GUESS WHAT?!

I can't freaking fit into it!!!! Just when I thought I felt... more toned.


It was so frustrating! Yet, I didn't careless, and all I wanted is for my fat ass to fit into that pair of Jeans. You see, I am still in the state of 'denial'. So I used all my strength and pulled that jeans up my fat thunder thighs. Surprisingly, it didn't tear.

And now, I am walking around work feeling that my butt looks amazing, just because I could fit into those jeans. Secretly, I am walking around with my tummy sucked in. What a shame.


Definition from the Urban Dictionary

·         A dick-bouncin, dynamic booty, that defies the laws of physics and reminds men why we wanna be dogs or an urban term used to define approval of the voluptuous curvature of a feminine rump.   
·         A  bangin' ghetto booty.
·         The posterior of the female anatomy when concerning the homosapien species. In which the diameter of the said posterior is not to exceed 50 inches but not to go below 40 inches. Equally as important the owner of the badunkadunk must possess a waist line no larger than 2/3 the diameter of the badunkadunk.
·         A female booty which is extremely large in comparison to her body, yet, observed by males as round, full, and sexy.
·         A  round, plump incenibly juicy derrierre so phat that it jiggles more than a cup of jello puddin around Bill Cosby

·         A big Fat Ass! 

Hmmm...... I'm actually thinking of a liposuction.

 Aite, back to work. I'm going running today. Needa jiggle those fats off.