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Friday, May 27, 2011


After a long few weeks of feeling like a low down clown (due to over working myself and other personal stress factors), I finally feel like I can breathe again. I felt inspired from not doing anything but watching great youtube performances, and even at work.

I was at my job the other day at the Natural History Museum working as a butler for an Arts Connection event. As usual, we would be setting up the event, working the reception, bringing out plated dinners and wines while we watch the event unfold itself amongst the elegantly dressed, beautifully decorated room and bright candles. Besides the fact that we are paid good money to be someone else's bitch, we get to attend important events, see celebrities, sometimes try great food.... well while being a butler of course. But anyway, during the event while they were giving out awards, my attention was caught by the last name of the recipient. She bore the same last name as I do (NG), and how often do you get to see/hear someones last name with only two letters and no vowels?
As they introduced her, I quickly found out that she was Malaysian. My ears pricked up as I listened to her speech of how she grew up in Klang and her journey of getting this far in her career. I was determined to talk to her (speaking to important people at parties are against the company rule by the way). But how often do I get to meet a Malaysian in the States, let alone a dancer too?!

After the event was over (while I was passing out fortune cookies), I walked up to her and told her that I am a Malaysian and I am a poor struggling artist. She too was surprised to see me (like I said, how often do you see a Malaysian in this field?) She told me, "Keep trying. anything is possible in New York. Keep trying, it will happen soon."

Wow. I felt so inspired. I hope it does happen soon.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

I am

Thankful for my friends and family who are supportive of me.
Thank you for being there when I am a mess.

I feel better now.


Friday, May 20, 2011

I don't quite remember when was the last time I felt so stressed.
It feels like I have a permanent headache.
I have changed.
My friends and family would always say that I have a happy, positive, and bubbly personality.

Not anymore, I look at myself and I have changed.
I don't remember crying at least once a week.
I don't remember having a major breakdown every fortnight.
I am so sick and tired.
I don't know who I am anymore.
I am on the verge...

Monday, May 16, 2011


I always ask people around me, "Where do you see yourself in 5 years?"
A career, a house, a family, and etc.

A couple of years ago, I would easily put the dreams in my head to words. But now, life's uncertainties has forced me to think practically on where would I really be in 5 years? I was just talking to mom over the phone the other day. And she said, "Well, you are 24 years old in the Chinese calendar so you are not that young anymore."
*Chinese believe that you are a year old the day you were born.*

Dang. It's true, before I know it, I would need to stop living for myself and actually think of what I would need to really do in 5 years.

As for now, I just hope that I get to stay in the country and pursue my dreams.
Is that too much to ask for?

Where do YOU see yourself in 5 years?

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Wednesday, May 11, 2011


I had an extremely productive day yesterday.
No, I did not go to any auditions, the audition season is slowing down.
But, I went to work. Then to the gym, which I had an excellent workout.
Came home and made Mango Guacamole, which is a great success!! I need to make more of them now. If only avocados were cheaper :(

And I went on a date!
A day with work, physical health, fun at night. I like!

And a day off today!!! :)
I've been living two blocks away from the river for the past 10 months and for the first time I had the time to explore it on a great day like this.

Back to work tomorrow.

Monday, May 09, 2011


The SING OFF Season 3 auditions were this past weekend.
After meeting up only 4 times, our month old acappella group went in to S.I.R studios to audition for the NBC's reality TV show. I must say that we did pretty well in it.

Saturday was a long day. we met up at 9.30am so we could run through our two songs that we prepared for our audition appointment at noon. After a long waiting process, we finally got seen at 3pm. The casting group loved us and told us to come back with a Broadway song because they wanted to market us as the 'New York musical theatre group'. Lol. What's new. That was what we are anyway.
After being seen by the casting team, we were brought outside for pictures, and a bunch of interviews with different people. We had the camera crew following us and recording every little conversation that we have. I must say, it did make me feel like a celebrity. But on the other hand, we are in New York after all. Everyone is some sort of celebrity.

I went to work after that. Came home at 3am in the morning after 9 and a half hour shift.

3 and a half hours later, I woke up, got ready, and left to meet with the group for a rehearsal of the new musical theatre song that they requested for.

We met up in front of the Penn Station and since we didn't have any rehearsal space, we started singing by where we met (literally, by some random steps). We started getting a lot of attention. Two bus loads of tourists drove by and requested that we would sing more, a homeless lady tried getting people to pay us for singing, a guy actually did and gave her 2 dollars which she kept. We than decided to move to another location just in case we would get in trouble because what we were doing was indeed illegal.

To cut the long story short. We had an amazing fruitful audition weekend although I felt like nothing but to just crash on my couch the moment I set foot in my apartment. It was a LONG weekend.

Anyway, I am sure you would like to see what we've accomplished so here are some footages of the audition process!

While rehearsing on the streets.........

And yes, we got kicked out of a bank while singing...... Yes, I know. Who sings at a bank?
Well, someone once saw a guy serenading the bank tellers with his guitar and song and figured that we could do the same. We tried!

Seasons of Love was the song that we came for during the callbacks. Learned it in less than an hour because I was stuck at work the night before.

Teenage Dream was one of the first few songs we learned since VocalMotion formed.

We have a couple more songs which we didn't manage to have footage for. Hopefully soon!

Now, all we can do is wait. Pray for us and hope for the best that you'll see us on NBC!

That's all for this week! Stay tuned!

Sunday, May 08, 2011

Mummy Day

A short dedication to all the moms in the world and especially to our mom's whom we've not celebrated mother's day with for the past 4 years.

Thank you for being so supportive mom.
I love you.


Tuesday, May 03, 2011


Do you ever wonder why do you do what you do?

I feel tired. I am just wondering when will I crash and burn.

Monday, May 02, 2011



One of our first few takes of Teenage Dream after working through the music without our beat boxer, one of our tenors, and our bass. Not the best sounding run, but that's what rehearsals are for right? ;)